It has been a strange few months for our family, to say the least. For a short while, Chris and I switched roles and I worked more while he was jump hunting for roughly four months. Today, we return to old routines. Chris returns to work full-time and I return to full-time stay-at-home mom while juggling part-time freelancing on the side.
I feel nervous about the transition. I am 34 weeks pregnant with a preschooler and a toddler at home and various clients counting on me to follow through with assignments in a timely fashion. In addition to my normal workload, I am preparing for maternity leave by getting ahead on my work for regular clients. I feel anxious when I think about all that goes into nurturing my children, keeping everyone fed, clean and clothed as well as finding time for work and adequate rest. To say I am overwhelmed is an understatement.
At the same time, I am looking forward to returning to our old routines. Since we first got news of my husband's job offer, I have found myself day dreaming about returning my focus towards home just in time to prepare for the baby's arrival. I have missed some of the familiar rhythms that come with being a stay-at-home mom: the trips to the library, making things beautiful at home and even keeping a semi-regular cleaning routine.
Something else I have missed is this space. I'll be the first to admit that I have blogged, inconsistently, for five years for all of the wrong reasons. To present a certain image or find enjoyment in motherhood when I was plagued with loneliness. Now, for maybe the first time I ever, I want to blog just because. I am enjoying my days with the girls, I am looking forward to our son's birth, I am enjoying my days of work and I want to put words down and upload pictures that document this special time of our life.
Even so, I think I know well enough that a blog used as a family diary isn't the most interesting read. So I think I want to share helpful things here, too. I am not quite sure what that will look like, maybe a recipe here and there or tips on things that are working for us during long days at home or while we adjust to life as a family of five.
All that to say: I am back at it. Back to old routines and back to blogging for fun. Hopefully we'll be seeing more of each other in the coming months.